Bleeding

The credence I once had is now gone
Killed by the sins that I have done
I want to live this moment of madness
To wash away all my bitterness
My heart is bleeding it’s getting me insane
I want to cut it out and see the pain
I have to reach for what’s inside
What’s going on in that sick mind?
Sudden rush I feel in my brain
Like adrenaline walking through my vain
Sometimes comes sometimes goes away
What’s lying in the end of this way?
Is it my disappearance or my existence?
I have to sweep away my arrogance
To find a way to fill my emptiness
I have to reach for the far happiness